you ever love somebody you can barely breathe.

There's time when I think: what's the point? why do I even bother? No one cares if you do that stuff for them, Lala, they don't bother to even say thanks. stop wasting your time on them.

Yeah, maybe I shouldn't waste my time on people like that, but I can't help it if I love them.

just gonna stand there and watch me burn, well that's alright cause I like the way it hurts.

My life has seriously been turned upside down in the last two weeks. My uncle's in ICU(Intensive Care), my great-aunt is seriously ill, my aunt was in a car crash. All on one side of my family. The side I love more. Tears have been shed, hugs have been given, kisses were planted. But none of it's good enough. I locked myself in my room and I wrote. I wrote like it was the end of my life. Believe me, it felt like it.

I'll aim my fist at the dry wall, next time, there will be no next time.

I'm hoping and praying that everything will work out sooner or later. I drown myself in my tears and no one will stop me. And thank you to Elaine, my dear sister that I love oh so much, Dipsy and Maeve. I know who my friends are and who to turn to when everything feels like it will crash onto me. I love you all more than anything. V and S are always here too. And I love you both more than myself. Seann, please don't mourn Cal for too long, he wouldn't want to see you like this and we all know he died happy with you in his heart.

RIP Caleb. Everytime I shed a tear I will think of you and try to stop myself. I'll always think of you as my big brother. I'll miss you, Cal.

Until next time,

Lala.x

burn me up.

Hey, lookie here, it's my blog that I love oh so much but always forget to update! I'm going to meet my friend in a few minutes and I'm supposed to be doing my work but I wanted to say heeey to y'all. and YAY, guess what?! My Twin's birthday is in ONE WEEK!! Whhooooop, partay time with her.. Happy very early birthday V. Baaaah! I'm vibrating.. oh, it's my phone.. and shit, I have to go.. I love y'all xxx

PS. I have an epic post written up for later, just y'all wait and see ;) xx

Will You Be My Fallen Angel?

I'm obsessed with darkness, gore, angels, fallen angels mainly. That's just me. So you can imagine how I felt when reading House of Night when a fallen angel entered the story.

Life can be tough for me at times, mainly cause of the haters, well not haters just.....disagreers, but two very special people in my life keep me happy. Seann and Vicky I love you more than anything just for that alone. And everything else that comes along with us amazes me. You girls are absoleutley beautiful and sweet. I hope you realise how much I lovw you guys :3

And it's another lazy Sunday for me. And it's Oxygen weekend here in Ireland, and if you don't know what Oxygen is you don't know music! LOOL..

Anyhoo I'm leaving you all with a song by a band who are playing at Oxygen today and I deeply love the band! Byeeeeee xx

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10 days . 10 songs . 10 quotes . 10 meanings .

Hello, Its Vickeh !! Louise was too tired to write this post. Okay, so Louise gets to see Eclipse tomorrow. Like, Seriously, Im jealous. Being in crappy England means I have to wait until 9th July to see it! Not. Happy.

it's Louise.. yeah I'm tired and in a pissy mood.. but excited for tomorrow. I've left who I think, is the best character, for last. so yeah, bye.. I need to sleep..


"Isabella Swan? I promise to love you forever — every single day of forever. Will you marry me?"
~ Edward

"I am going away for a while. I'll be back don't try and follow me cause I'll return as soon as possible."
~ Paramore, Misguided Ghosts

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wow..

the weekend is upon us.

Saturday is almost here.

ECLIPSE!!!!

ahhhh!!

So, yeah, I'm going camping out with Dipsy and Maeve and Dipsy's sisters and their friends tonight.. :D fuuuuuuun..

oooh, okay.. quote time :D

Wuthering Heights.. we heard a lot about this in the Eclipse novel..

so, it's in my reading list so I'll get to it..

"You loved me - then what right had you to leave me? . . . You, of your own will, did it. I have not broken your heart - you have broken it; and in breaking it, you have broken mine."
~ Heathcliff to Cathy, Wuthering Heights

"you've got, you've got it, some kind of magic. Hypnotic, hypnotic, you're leaving me breathless. I hate this, I hate this, you're not the one I believe in, with God as my witness."
~ Paramore, I Caught Myself

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Wow, so most people saw Eclipse today.. I kinda boycotted twitter so I wouldn't see anything..

I have one of my paramore edits on thos post too.. Let me know what you think kay?


"The right thing isn’t always real obvious. Sometimes the right thing for one person is the wrong thing for someone else. So… good luck figuring that out."
~ Charlie


"And the worst part is, before it gets any better we're heading for a cliff and in the freefall I will realise that I'm better off when I hit the bottom."
~ Paramore, Turn It Off

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Well, I guess I'll tell you about my day. I haven't much else to tell you but that.

So, I went to town. and to you all who don't know what town is, it's Galway city! And I went shoppinnnnggg. How exciting..

Well, last night on Chatroll was fun. Rape, dog killing and more? Sound like fun to you? Believe me it was!

anyhoo, I have absoleutley nothing to say but to all of you who are going to ECLIPSE tonight/tomorrow HAVE EPIC FUN!



"She’ll come around when she’s ready, Edward. She’s had too much to deal with today. Let her mind protect itself."
~ Carlise


"So one day I found her crying.
Coiled up on the dirty ground,
Her prince finally came to save her,
And the rest you can figure out.
But it was a trick,
And the clock struck twelve.
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick,
or the wolves gonna blow it down."
~ Paramore, Brick By Boring Brick