Always Here

Gripping on to the last hold of what was me. So much has changed in such little time for us. We were closer than two peas in a pod. We could tell each other anything. But since this year our friendship will never be the same between us again. We are constantly reminded of the things that have happened, all because of one person. I know I'm to blame for starting all of the mess but it's also me that ends up the most hurt. all because I have no one to stand up for myself but me. Then you have the person that hates me so dearly to stand up for you. The person who can make me feel like everything is my fault with one measly sentence. But I have to keep my head held high and hope that some day everything will be the same again.

Forever && Always

I Don't Wanna Be Friends

Inspired by 30 seconds to mars version of lady gaga's Bad Romance :]

If love is all you have to give, it's no good to me.. Because you may think it's all you have to give but you can hurt a person in many ways..Give your stupid love to someone who cares.. Because I sure as hell don't.. Nightmares to remind me.. Consequences of the hurt.. To much for one to bear.. I loved you and you left.. I don't want you back.. It hurts to much.. :/

Forever && Always

Raaawwrr :D

You make my life brighter..
You are my favourite star in the skies..
You make my eyes light up..
But you don't notice.. You're with her.. And she ain't me.. You are my bestfriend but you don't know how much I care for you. The hurt I feel when something happens to you. If you knew oh how things would be different but you love her. And apparently it'll always be her never me..

Forever && Always

Just As Much :]

So much for fullfilling dreams.. Make them your own.. Don't rely on other peoples faults.. Look at your own flaws cause they are the things that are letting your dreams slip away. But don't worry you'll always be a dream for me. I'm not letting go until you're in my life and forever && always mine.. :]

Nothing Compares To You.

More amazing than words..
Better than life itself,,
Ability to make my day so much better..
How much more does a person want in a best friend?
I know what.. Seann and Vicky.. Cause they are the best and I'm possibly the luckiest person ever to have them!!
<3 love love love x

New-ish Moon

This story was written by a person I love very much! Ms. Eimear Joyce. She kindly wrote this story for me as I'm off my Twilight books for lent.. Just so you know YaYa is Laurent, Mary Harny is Victoria and Jacob Biscuits is Jacob Black oh and the Vontrapps are the Volturi so yeah here you go!



New-ish Moon
By Eimear Joyce


It was Bella Swans birthday and she walked down the stairs and everyone was like ‘Happy Birthday’ and Alice got her a dress and it was pretty and then Edward gave her a present and when opening the present she got a papercut and Jasper saw the blood so he wanted it cause he is a vampire and they like blood so he wanted it and Edward saved Bella from Jasper but she got a bigger cut but the cake was nice and it was awkward cause he wanted to kill her and stuff but Jasper couldn’t help himself so he is still cool :p
It was morning time. Bella Swan was going to her school Soup High School in her orangey redy truck thing. She was thinking about the irony of living in a place called Forks (which is in Washington by the way) and going to a school that has the name of a food you can’t eat with a fork. She finally got to school and then she saw Edward Cullen, her pale skinned, hairy bellied, orange eyed, smoker, vampire boyfriend and gave him a hi5, then they held hands and skipped into school.
They went to a forest place after school and Edward said he didn’t want her to be hurt or something so he went away and she started rolling on the ground crying and stuff and then YaYa came the Jamaican vampire and he wanted to suck her blood bleh bleh so she ran and then she saw her badly in need of a haircut friend Jacob, surname Biscuits and she screamed

“Jacob run”

or something but he turned into a wolf and ate YaYa and she was like gasp.
Bella bought a motorbike cause she wanted one to see Edward cause he left and stuff and she would scream in bed and stuff cause he was gone and she was sad but when she was in danger she saw Edward but I dunno why so lets just say cause it sounds cool. So she went to Jacobs house and fixed the motorbike so she could go on it and see Edward but not really cause he is somewhere else but she can still see him so they fix the motorbike and she falls off it and Jacob the biscuit man ran over and helped her and then they saw some other wolf boys jumping off a cliff into water and stuff and Bella was like

“this will make me see Edward”

and stuff so later on she drove up to the cliff and jumped off and she saw Edward but shockingly her enemy Mary Harny was in the water and almost ate her face but Jacob Biscuits save her so she giggled but then Alice came and said Edward was gonna kill himself well he wasn’t gonna the Vontrapps would cause his belly would go all shiny and stuffs cause vampires are made of sequins (true story) . so she went to Italy with Alice in a car from Forks. They went to Italy and everyone was in red and suddenly Bella started running and Edward stepped outside and his hairy belly was shiny and a little girl saw him and then the vontrapps sang to him and Bella is gonna be a vampire or else Edward dies and that’s bad but its okay now.

THE END!



What Eimear drew at the bottom of the story!! haahaa.. Love Yoou!

Confusion..

Hold me in your arms and come back to me..

You two have made all the difference..
without ye everything would still be the same.. Boring as ever..

Mahal Ko Kang

So Long, Fairwell

If you wanted to hurt me why do it in the worst way? Whatever I did to you was nothing.. Nothing at all. I've covered it all up for too long. It's time you found out who the real me is. Because you judged too fast. I'm the fragilr one and you're the hurter. One person knows. And she'll always know. Because not only did you hurt me, you hurt the girl you love with your selfishness. You're cheating your way through life and if that's what you want to do fine. But don't come near me!

Final Straws..

You've made me laugh 'til I cried..

But you've also made me cry 'til I'm sick of it and depressed..

You've messed with my head for too long dear..

You won't get away with hurting me mentally and physically this time..

It hurt too much the last time..

The memories are still there but..

Most importantly the scars of the pain are still there..

You've pulled the very last straw.. The final straw you'll get..

Forever && Always

Happy now..

And if all the flowers faded away..

Things happen.. And when they do.. Think of the positive things in the situation.. Although it might be hard everyone has to move on.. The consequences are there for life if you don't move on.. I'm a softie.. True and true but I don't mind that.. I have emotions.. I'm not a stone.. I'm happy now and that's all I care about.. And believe me there has been times when I have most certainaly not been happy.. One life to live and I'mma live it to the full..

She is the Sunlight.. Forever and always :3

Hope..

Hope should be for everyone. Not for me though. I looked over to him. My best friend. My asshole. No one knew him like I knew him. No one believed me that he was really a softie on the inside.. Not one person but myself believed in him. He has all his friends and he believes their lies straight off. Having hope for him makes me feel lonley as I'm the only one.. But at least he has someone.. I hae no one..

Hating Life ..

Who should hate life? everything is there for you. I have amazing friends and I love them to death. But hate is also a big part of my life. Forgive and forget is much easier said than done. I've been called a lot of crap just because I don't listen to the same music as most of my friends, have a scary obsession with twilight, Jasper, Alice, Ashley, Jackson and all the rest. Yeah I'm different. Everyone is. So why should people make you feel bad about it. No one should be ashamed of how you live your life. Be different. Be spontaneous but most of all leave the haters. If they hate it, obviously they don't have much of a life if all they want to do in their life is make others miserable. Live life to the full becuse you only get one life.

For Her..

84 chapters of Smiles.
84 chapters of Hope.
84 chapters of Excitement.

84 chapters of Inspiration.
84 chapters of Simplicity.

84 chapters of Tranquility.
84 chapters of Happiness.
84 chapters of Envy.

84 chapters of Sweetness.
84 chapters of Unpredictability.
84 chapters of Nervous waiting.
84 chapters of Love.
84 chapters of Intelligence.
84 chapters of Goodness.
84 chapters of Heartfeltness.
84 chapters of Tears.

These 84 chapters have brought 3 girls together. Seann (the author) and me and Vicky (her loyal sisters). This is just a reminder to her that the story not boring or stupid. Seann this brought us together, forever.

Paddy's Day

Also known as St.Patrick's Day.. Patron saint of Ireland.. Died on 17th of March in 492.. His feast day is on 17th of March every year.. It's great craic (fun).. Most towns in Ireland have parades to celebrate.. This year by far was the best and had the best fun with my friends.. I wanted to have Seann and Vicky there but sadly not..
Me and my best friend Eimear up there ^^ love her x

If you want to see the parade and some of my horrible dancing go to this link..

http://vimeo.com/10260568

love laalaa..x

You Make My Day..

This post is for my best friends/sisters.. Seann and Vicky.. Ye don't actually know how much you two mean to me and how my life has changed with ye in it.. We are all completley different and it's perfect that way.. Oceans apart but together in so many ways..

Seann - You are utterly amazing girl! You are an inspirational writer and to be honest I love you soo much!

Vicky - You have such random moment and love coke too.. A girl like myself :D You're especially nice and such a brilliand writer ..

What I'm really trying to say here is that I love you guys.. So much.. And thank you for being such amazing friends.. :] lovelovelove x

Songs..

Okay so my music teacher is making me and some other girls do a song and sing it in a concert for tanzinia.. Here it is.. What do you think?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Rkx4Jfhcug

Life Goes On..

You might not want it to but evryone has an opinion and the sooner people realise that the better. Teenage life is tough and I'm sadly learning that the hard way. But who's to blame but ourseleves for making it harder for ourselves. Of course there's people who want to make you feel like shit (and believe me I know them people, they thrive amongst us). But why don't people look at the positive side of the world? The good things that make us happy? Of course the bad things are there and we always want t make them better, but why when we feel sad and depressive think of what you love in the world. Lala.x

First Post :]

Yesh, my first post on blogger as Seann has advised me that blogging is good fun.. I guess this is like a diary yesh? Well let me begin, I'm Louise, as you may or may not know.. I have a serious obsession with all things Twilight, FanFic, Jasper and Jackson Rathbone.. Ashley Greene is my idol and I love her to bits. Music is my passion and Paramore are my gods. Well if you're reading thank you, and go watch the Eclipse trailer now (and if you're a bigger wuss than me you'll cry harder) :') Lala.x